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Wednesday, July 21st, 2004
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yes hello. :)
Okay today was fun. work SUCKED. god I hate
it sometimes. My managers take it. So after
work sara (po) and me went to super wal mart
cause the ashlee simpson CD came out today
(which i absolutely LOVE) .. and the starsky
and hutch DVD came out so we went shopping! :)
then i got home at liiike 10:30? Greg came
over and we watched a lot of TV. He annoys
me now. Like, when he touches me, I get so
aggrivated and just want to scream DON'T
FUCKING TOUCH ME. grr. somethings wrong with
me. I don't know. Whatever.
Oh, I almost forgot. Remember I posted about
how Andrew tried to kiss me Sunday night? Ok,
well here's the Readers Digest version of why
we could NEVER be together.. his ex Tami..
hated me. and now she finally likes me and we're
kind of friends.. (she's in the same group as
him and greg and such) she'd kill me. and greg
would KILL andrew. but I'm crushing. so much.
it's like.. he's someone i ALLLWAYS WANTED. but
couldn't have. you know? and now its like i
KNOW he wants me. and it's nice. haha. but i
think after I get him, I wno't want him anymore.
I think when I got with greg .. the "name"
appealed to me more because he was "greg gaudi".
well known in HS. that "group" you know? blah.
I'm so superficial sometimes. but anyhow.
I had up an away message - at work call or text.
ANDREW TEXTS ME. we talked seriously through texts
the last hour of my shift while i was straightening
the store and closing it. wow. then while me and
po were at walmart he's like "call me sometime" haha
so i called him right hten. and i'm like, okay i called
you now next time you have to call me. i'm so gay.
hello 8th grade. we talked for 15 minutes on the
phone. he said he isn't going to tell anyone about
sunday. and i said its better that way because all
7 of the guys from that group are going to canada,
and he knows that if he tells nick (his bestfriend,
also sooo close to greg) that it WILl slip this
weekend. and if it does. he will lose ANYYYYYYYYY
chance with me. heh. I have him right where I want
him. I feel SO evil. What am I doing?
AcK. someone make me normal. PLease.
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it's REALLY been forever.
last time I was here I was uncontrollably missing shaun. and obviously any boardie reading knows that I'm with Greg now. Since may 13th. All of my friends think he's my "rebound" which he probably is. Because, if I hadn't found out shaun was dating ashley.. i probably would've stayed single. but oh well. greg and I have been pretty much inseperable the past two months. and I really really care about him. We actually say that dreaded "L word" .. uhm yeah. But I can honestly say I do love him. Because I know everything about him. and we're truly compatible. and I know he cares about me so much. <3 but we fight a lot. not like FIGHT. but argue. At first it was because I was being bitchy.. which we decided was only because I was scared and was pushing him away.. but yeah. now it's just because he admitted last night he's insanely jealous of all these guys that call my phone.
and you know, he has no reason to be jealous. right? wrong. okay, seriously lets start off with jeremy- been friends with him since i was in 10th grade (he was a senior) and he's always always always liked me but i was always dating one of his friends. oops :X anyhow, when he came back from the marines i was ilke WOW he got hot. haha. and then theres matt - he is in love with me. sounds conceited but i posted about this. he would do anything for me at the drop of a dime and would do anything for me. invited me to the movies tonight. invited me to hershey park last weekend. and this weekend he wants me to go to virginia beach with him. i dont' return his phone calls cause it REALLY upsets greg. but he wno't take a hint. then theres shaun- we haven't talked since last week. but. i still love him SO MUCH. blah. lets see .. then theres andrew. wow i've had the BIGGEST CRUSH on him since sophomore year! .. and then again senior year.. and i had this monster party last night. he tried to kiss me after greg left. but shh cause only brandi and nicole know that. :X .. and he wants me to break up with greg SO BAD to be with him. but that could be bad.. REALLY BAD
cause he's in the same "clique" as greg. and just. ah. bad. bad. bad. but him and greg don't get along for reasons that have nothing to do with me. they just tolerate each other cause they have the same friends, you know? yeah. so they're all going to canada together (7 of 'em) this weekend. i hope andrew doesn't say something to greg. not good. no no nope.
me and brandi are still SOSOSO close. <3 and nicole is just as close. we call each other are "hips" cause we really were inseperable before greg and I got together.. but now we still are.. just not when i'm with greg. hah. hMmm. and i'm still close with heather, ash and sara. just not cathi cause we don't like her. mafia: ATTACK :) I have A BUNCH of new pics. . but my computer is a flamer and won't let me get on easy designer so i can't update my website. so if you want pix and I didn't already send 'em to ya.. lemme know.
okay, i think that's all. i'm going to try and come back religiously. i miss this. i love you girls <33
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..* its to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
when the first star you see
may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said?
what you thought the song meant? ..*
GOD i LOVE that song..
anyways. nothing much new.
Im working on that letter to shaun..
dont know if im going to send it..
ryan is being dramatic..
=\ haven't talked to matt.. oops..
i have to wake up at 730 to work
so im off to bed. night girls.
and thanks to yinz who read and
respond to my ish. it means a lot
xox.
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well yeah. so tonight started off with a bang. i went to post the song, "remember when" by alan jackson because it made me cry friday night when I heard it.. soo as I'm bolding certain words and whatnot .. i just started to tear up.. which led into uncontrollable bawling. yeah, I was crying so hard I couldn't breathe. Ijustmisshimsomuch.</3 and it really sucks cause theres nothing I can do about it. I talked to my friend Nicole and she told me I Just need to get over him. Ali is amazing..and helped me out MUCHLY throughout my breakdown.<33 n she thinks I should write him a letter and just get it all out.. and I also talked to ms holly bout it.. and she agrees with the letter.. I'm going to put every single emotion i'm feeling on a piece of paper and leave the cards in his hands. and see what happens. actually, i'm going to write the letter tonight.. and re read it tomorrow and the next day and still see if I feel the same way.. 'cause nicole wants me to make sure i'm not just lonely.. and missing SOMEONE there.. not just SHAUN. but I could have matt ryan or jeremy right this very SECOND at the drop of a dime. its 348 here in pittsburgh and i KNOW if i called one of the three they'd be here within 15 minutes. :\ .. but I want SHAUN. who won't be home until may 17th.. and then he goes back june 8th for summer classes untill july 1st. :\
work is keeping me busy, though. i had 39.4 hours last week.. and this week im scheduled again for 40 :\ .. I even have to work a 1-10 on my BIRTHDAY this week. that sucks. but they're giving me friday off as a present. yahoo!!
okay.. going off to write now..
Love yinz<3
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Wednesday, April 28th, 2004
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so wow. its been like MONTHS since I've been here but I decided to start updating again!!
friEnDs..
Since march.. I've kinda stopped hanging out with Ash CAthi & Sara.. but me and brandi are closer than ever... and now nicole is back in the picture cause she broke up with her SOOO CONTROLLING MENTAL boyfriend of nearly 3 years.. .and everyone thinks we're twins [i wish, cause she's hot] .. so yeh. its just us three. but WOW. do we LIVE IT UP :p ((look @ my pics.. haha))
ScHooL..
that shit is over THANKFULLY :) it feels good to have freshman year behind me cause I almost killed myself half way through. but yeh. its done
WORK..
I got a job @ dunhams (pronounced.. dun ums) .. pretty much cause my manager guy only hires hott girls and nicole made him hire me. i wore a low cut shirt to my interview and I have blonde hair.. so you know. Yeh. It's a sporting goods store. and I dont know much about the equipment.. haha.. anyhow..
BOYS..
okay last time I updated.. I was obsessed with Randy and kind of dating Kevin & Luke..
well yeah I don't talk to ANY of them anymore.. haha.. I think there was a Tim, too. but.. they all suck. I got REAL bored with Luke - he was obsessive.. Kevin was a cokehead. annnd Randy is just DUMB. like seriously got a 700 on his SATs. or something low like that.. haha..
anyways.. there was this kid scott i started to like during school.. but of course, he left, he went back home to Erie. boo. and Ryan (whose house we always party at.. the 23 year old.. )likes me tons and tons. and we're hanging out tomorrow. but .. yeh. i dont like him like THAT. matt.. hmm there's a pic of him in my webpage.. He uhmm.. thinks we're dating.. i guess we are. i post about him from time to time. he's the one that buys me clothes and takes me to dinner liiike 3 times a week :-X .. not my fault!! but yeah. he REALLy likes me. last monday when I started workign I came home to a dozen PINK (my favorite) roses on my doorstep. it was unbelieveably sweet. but yeh. dont' like him like that. and then, there was Pat.. who is incredibly GORGEOUS. with a RECHID name.. who I was kinda . . whatevering with. not dating. just partying ;) with. anyway, i hadn't talked to him siiiince last sunday when we partied @ his dad's house.. (oh, pat has his own apartment down in Oakland in the city <33 by our school) .. n he's like 22 or something. but yeh.. hadn't talked to him. annnnd he texted me tonight.. he wants to hang out tomorrow.. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK. we'll see how that goes. yeh. .. .
i think thats it for now.. the parties have died down since school has let out.. cause everyone went home and the people from highschool aren't back from college yet cause PITT is insane and gets out 3 weeks earlier. but yeah. i'm gonna update often. so check back :P
love yinz if you're reading<3
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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
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MoNday - went to kevin's with brandi & cathi.. i made him have a party since ashley and brandi are on spring break and we were looking to party ALLLL WEEEEEK. so yah. he invited a bunch of his friends and we all played cards and games and stuff. i got crunked. it was golden. ashley ended up not coming. cathi took us home at like 630. i rolled into my house at 7 AM. that was rockin' :-D i was soo sick.. said i wasn't going to drink again...
TuEsDaY - slept till four PM.. felt GREAT.. soo i could drink that night. haha. ashley's friends - jon, jason, doug, and matt - were all going to WVU to go to these clubs. soo me brandi ashley & cathi went with 'em. i live in PA, so west virginia is liiike an hour+ away.. but it was SOO much fun @ this club. it was 18 and over, 21 to drink - but jon kept buying me drinks.. vodka & red bull .. bacardi & red bull .. bud light drafts.. ohh, sooOO many drinks. so i was buzzing real good. and i was sitting at this table smoking a cigarette with cathi and we were talking cause we were catching our breath from dancing hardcore.. and he was like "god girls yinz are too loud!!" (being sarcastic) lol.. soo he asked me to dance & we went out to the floor.. and he had two beers, so i took one. i pretty much did that with every guy i danced with lol.. just had to make sure i was in the middle of the dance floor so the bouncers didn't see me cause i didnt' have a freaking wristband cause im only 18 !! boo to that. but yeah. two guys got my number cause the were SMOKING. omiigaaaad!! and they BOTH called me while i was on my way home .. sitting in the cab of doug's truck sick of my ass.. oh gaad i was soo sick. :( but it was amazing..
WeDs - so i got home at 4 this morning.. and decided not to fall asleep cause i had to wake up at 8 for class and i knew if i fell asleep i wasnt' waking up for awhile. soo i just ate crackers and drank TONS of water cause i was sooo sick. and eventually 730 rolls around and i started to get ready for class. then went to class. weee. amanda took me home and she came over for awhile.. then devin came over.. we chilled. amanda left. then i fell asleep. i guess devin left too, lol. just woke up .. its like 9, im gonna go watch the OC and get ready for another bumpin' night :-D
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Sunday, February 22nd, 2004
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oh wow.. where to even START?!!
friday - me, ashley, cathi, and sara met at brandi's house around 930.. then we headed out to greensburg to Ryan's party. there weren't too many people there when we got there- but they sure as hell showed up. l0l. vanessa, joey, and tiff showed up.. and then steve called me and him and jason and mark c. came.. seriously .. 10 people at this party were people i invited. lol oh well. anyways there was like 70 people there it was GREAT. i got CRUNKED!! stupid card games mess me up. then me and brandi were playin beer pong and we were DOMINATING the table. seriously we were kicking ass!!
then. me and brandi and mark s. were sitting outside and we wantd to go to sheetz.. so mark drove..
well we ended up getting lost.. in the next town over.. tried to make a left turn to turnaround.. it ended up being RAILROAD tracks.. we got STUCK ON THE RAILROAD TRACKS. my god, we had to call nick to come and bring dustin- but they were both drunk so danielle and jen drove them. oh god. they had to LIFT THE CAR up and OVER the tracks.. four cop cars showed up ((this was 3am, by the way)) and me brandi jen & danielle were sitting in danielles car across the street watching the boys try and get marks car out.. and watching the cops.. we were SOO scared they were gong to get UAD's.. but thank god they didn't test 'em. :)
sara cathi & ash had left earlier.. so me and brandi were just there lol.. and then like, joey got REALLY sick soo vanessa & tiff left too. (this was all before we went to sheetz) so me and brandi didn't really have a ride home. SOO .. mark s. was sleeping at nicks.. and so we just did, too. eventually we got back to nicks at liiike 5. . and we went to sleep at around 630 .lolol
saturday- did nothing, really.. then i took a nap from 530- 8 .. RANDY CALLS ME!! BITTNER WAS HAVING A PARTY. WOOOOOO HOOOOO. soo, me and brandi went. holy highschool reunion much!! EVERYONE was there.. it was a pretty bumpin' party. i LoVeD it. yeah. and god. lol i had soo much fun. i drove, and i got prettttty crunked. i kept falling up the stairs.. i ripped a whole in my jeans lol. and me and randy ended up hooking up. OMiGaaad i'm so obsessed with him. LoL
so i sobered my ass up and me and brandi left around 1, cause heathers parents were away and she was having people over too, and we were going to sleep there. well bittner told us he'd stop over later.. so we were just like.. okay..
WeLL THEN !! randy's cell is on my caller id lol.. and it was bittner saying they were coming over. weee!! soo yeah bitter, randy, aj, 'n zach came over and drank with us some more. omigaaaaaad.randy.ahh. yeah. so then. they were leaving. and i was in the kitchen cleaning up their bottles and whatnot,and all the boys left the room.. and randy came over and kissed me g'night. OMG. im like, floating. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! :-D
then i didn't fall asleep until 7 am. woke up at 10am.. left heathers.. came home and passed out till 530pm. lol.
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
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soo. last night. me and cathi went to Mr. Mike's with John (Filson) and this guy Chris (Darcy). that was gay. we sat there for liiike 2 hours eating and drinking. thenn Kevin called me and said he was going to some party @ this MANSION in murrysville. soo me and cathi ditched filson & darcy .. lol .. and met up with kevin.
kev picked us up at cathi's house.. and we met his two friends .. Chris (not darcy) & chuck. they were cool. soo we went to this party in murrysville.. this kid's house is worth 750,000 $$$. can you imagine that?? holy shit. it was sooooo nice.. FIVE FLOORS.. FIVE!!! yeah. soo we drank there for awhile. there was a bunch of people there. it was okay. we left early though, around 2am. came home..
cathi thinks the 2nd chris is sooo cute, so hopefully me & kevin hang out w/ her n chris. lol. yeah. i'm gay. time to goooOoo.
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ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? i can't even remember.. probably luke.
2. What is your weapon of choice? baseball bat.
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? um YEAH.
4. How about of the same sex? probably
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? i don't know- probably ash or someone.
6. What is your pet peeve? body hair. EWW
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? sometimes i keep them when i shouldn't. oh well
SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? crunches. its been like a week. :-X
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? oh god .. liike 6 or 7
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? no one
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? hmm.. something to my mom why i came in at 6 am
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? haha yeah.
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? last week . hopefully that will change today
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? today? why would i use it today i dind't have to wakeup for anything. my ass stayed in bed till 230. hehe
GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? huh?
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? chicken dude
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? ohh man. 15+ shots & drinks combined. i was DISGUSTINGLY sick the following day.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? no
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? yeah. i want to be skinnier.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? sweets!!!
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH!"? omg no lolol.
LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? holy cow. seriously over 30.
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? umm just about the same. ::covers face::
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? yeah. lol
4. Have you "done it"? yeah.
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? ABS. mmm wow. <3
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? haha. no
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? yea to pregn. test
GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? zip
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? the entire mall haha
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? buy a house .. then a car .. then a plane ticket out of this town.
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? yes
6. Have you ever stolen anything? yeah
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? like 400
PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? winning 3rd in my county hurdling.
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? runnin' track- all the accomplishments there.
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? grad. college
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? most of the time yeah
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yes
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? yeah..
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? god nothing. i suck today
ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? this girl danielle's whole wardrobe.
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? what is trading spaces?
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? tara reid or britney spears.
4. Have you ever been cheated on? nopppe.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yeah. hate my nose.
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? i unno
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? lol no
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? riiiiiight
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Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
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hmmm. last time i updated.. sunday i think..
well s unday night.. cathi called me and said we were going to the barn to party. so, she came and got me, and we went to ashley's house. then these two guys that i've never met before - jeremy & kevin - came over and met us. they were going to come with us. and then we were all sitting there waiting for josh & justin to show up. soo those two get there and we head off to the barn party .lol. soo hmm. long story, that feel through- kevin was just like "lets go to my apartment" .. soo we went and got more beer and then headed to kevin's apartment..
it was in greensburg - which is right by brandi's school, so i called her, and ashley let me take her car to go and get brandi. soo she came over too. that was cool. we played racetrack & pyramid & mushroom & asshole. yeahhh. i had a lot of fun, lol. :)
kevin and i ended up talking and such, and he took me home to get my books cause he told me to just sleep there and he'd take me to school in the morning cause its like 5 seconds from his house. yeeeah. soo he took me home, everyone left, then we came back, and like no one was there lol. soo hmm. i slept there from like 4 am till 9 am lol. then went to class. i only had one class so he came back in like an hour to get me.
we hung out till the afternoon then he took me home. he got my number and called me that night, too, but i didn't have my phone. so .. he called again last night and wants to hang out tonight. w'ell see what k ind of mood i'm in.
LoveS<3
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[01] What's your first name? jenette
[02] Middle name? elizabeth
[03] Last name? starts with a U.
[04] Nicknames? bella. jen. jennie. jenettie spaghettie.
[05] Age? eighteen.
[06] Gender? female.
[07] Birthday? may sixth.
[08] Your sign? taurus.
[09] Where do you live? pittsburgh.
[10] Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
[11] If so what's her/his name?
[12] Have you ever been in love? very much so.
[13] Who are/were your crushes? right now-- god i don't even know who I'm crushing on.
[14] Do you have any piercings, or want any piercings? gots my ears, tummy, n tongue.
[15] If so what do you have/want pierced? im content with that
[16] Do you have a tattoo or want one? want one.
[17] If so what kind and where? not sure.
[18] Where do you shop at the most? abercrombie.
[19] What color is your hair? brown for now
[20] What color are your eyes? bluuuue.
[21] How tall are you? 5'7".
[23] Do you smoke? yes.
[24] Do your friends smoke? yes.
[25] Who are your closest friends? brandi.
[26] Who are your friends? ashley. sara. cathi. heather. tim. shaun. jordan. nick. scott.
[27] Who are your best friends online? you.
[28] Do you like bath & body works? yes.
[29] Kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? garnier fructis.
[30] Is your hair short or long? its medium right now. growing it long, though.
[31] Do you like to shop? sometimes.
[32] What sports do you play? right now, nothing.
[33] What turns you on? :-X
[34] What turns you off? teeth. ugly teeth. eww.
[35] What place do you go for fun? anywhere with friends.
[36] What do you do for fun? party. laugh. go out w/ friends. drink. drive. jam. stuff.
[37] How many phones do you have in your house? 2. not counting cells
[38] How many TV's do you have in your house? four.
[39] What's your favorite food(s)? perogies.
[40] do you look like anyone famous? someone told me reese witherspoon a couple months ago. yeah, i wish !!
[42] Who are the most attractive people you know? uh. i dunno.
[43] Are you a virgin? hahaha. no.
[44] Do you wish to be like your parents? in some ways.
[45] What cologne should a hot guy wear? Axe.
[46] What are you listening to right now? some obnoxiously loud girl on her cell phone.
[47] What time is it? 12.01 PM.
[48] How many hours per day do you spend talking on the phone? uhhh a day? i'd say 2-3. :-X
[49] Do you have your own phone line? nope.
[50] Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex? umm Yeah.
[51] What are your favorite shoes? tan voilaire
[52] What kind of clothes do you sleep in? bummy pants and a tee.
[53] What's your favorite soda? uhh. cherry coke or wild cherry pepsi. i like cherry flavored lol.
[54] What things do you say a lot? "dude"
[56] Who is the coolest person in the world? you.
[57] Do you think you're weird or funny? both.
[58] What would you prefer thong or bikini? bikini.
[59] Who was the last person you called? uhh.. luke ?
[60] Where do you wanna get married? hmm somewhere beautiful
[61] Who is the hottest girl/guy in your school? i dont know. missy's boy is soo freaking FINE. i WISH he went to my school.
[62] What are your favorite girl names? Haley. isabella. annabelle. Riley
[63] What are your favorite guy names? Hunter. Tyler. Ryan. Zach. Jackson
[64] What's your worst memory in the past 5 years? uhh.. the last 3 months with shaun. boo.
[65] What's your favorite childhood memory? living next door to my cousin, heather.
[66] What is your favorite fast food restaurant? wendy's
[67] Who do you really hate? taylor cole. :)
[68] Do you have any brothers and sisters? yes.
[69] If so, names? Angela.
[70] Do you have a pool? indeed.
[71] Do you have a spa? no
[73] What are you addicted to? fattening food!
[74] Do you like jewelry? sometimes.
[75] Who do you wish you were? tara reid.
[76] Who has it easier, boys or girls? boys
[77] Would you rather be short or tall? in the middle.
[78] Do you like to dance? i love it
[79] Do you like playing pranks on people? yeah
[80] What's your least favorite subject in school? algebra.
[81] What's your favorite subject in schools? spanish.
[82] What time is it? 12.09 PM
[83] What college do you wanna go to? i go to college fuckbag.
[84] What school do you go to now? PITT.
[85] Do you have a playstation or nintendo 64? neither.
[85] If so, what are your favorite games? boo.
[87] Do you sleep a lot? holy yes.
[88] What are your favorite radio stations? if i tell you its not like yoku're going to know the stations anyway cause you dont live by me. heh
[90] Are you a morning person? omg no
[91] What's your favorite TV station? 11. mtv.
[92] Do you shave? yes.
[93] How often do you shower? everyday
[94] Do you get along with your parents? sometimes.
[95] What room do you spend the most time in? my bedroom.
[96] How many rooms does your house have? 4 bedrooms.
[98] Do you curse a lot? i think i curse too much.
[99] Are you ticklish? :whispers.: very.
[101] What are you wearing right now? jeans, a tee & a zip up
[102] Do you go to church? no
[103] Do you like the person who sent you this? i love atti. she posted it<3
[104] Do you believe in god? yes.
[105] Do you like to watch pda's? f no.
[106] Do you show pda? USED to.
[107] Do you believe in love at first sight? no.
[108] What color tooth brush do you use? pink.
[109] How many times a day do you brush your teeth? a lot.
[110] Who is your favorite cartoon character? tommy picles. ;)
[111] Do you have a job? no.
[113] What's your favorite fruit? strawberries.
[114] What's your favorite veggies? celery or brocolli.
[115] What's your favorite candy? starburts. jolly ranchers. sour patch kids. now n laters. anything really haha.
[116] What was the best day of your life so far? :shrugs.:
[117] What are you gonna do today? go to class.. go home n sleep.. thenn go out tonight. probably with kevin or jake.
[118] Are you momma's little angel? sometimes.
[119] Do you wear body spray? not usually.
[120] Who is the sweetest girl? uhh.. dont know. brandi?
[121] Who is the sweetest guy? hmm...
[122] are you wearing nail polish now? no.
[123] If so, what color? ---.
[124] How many rings or necklaces do you own? a lot.
[125] Do you wear a watch? yes
[126] Did/do you have braces? yes. for three years i did.
[127] Are you tired? very. but i can't sleep till after class.
[129] Do you have freckles? tons.
[130] What are you thinking right now? shaun being with that girl.
[131] Are you having fun? no
[132] What time is it? 1218 PM
[133] Who makes you laugh? everyone. lol.
[134] Who's your favorite teacher? mrs. hurney. 7th grade
[136] What is the best concert you have ever been to? KNOTB all the way!!
[137] What is your favorite dream? dont know
[138] what was your worst dream? when brandi died. :(
[139] Are you tired of filling this out yet? mm YES.
[140] Who of your friends do you think will get bored with this? all.
[141] Who sent this lovely survey to you? got it from atti's journal.
[142] What's your worst memory as a little kid? don't want to say it
[143] Have you ever cheated on anyone/been cheated on? I've cheated. X| .. never been cheated on, though.
[144] Do you believe in santa claus? no.
[145] Do you believe in ghosts? no.
[204] How many cds do you have? lots.
[205] What cds are in your cd player? britney spears- fuel - and three mixes.
[206] How many tapes do you have? maybe ten. never listen to 'em.
[211] Are most of your friends music freaks? nah. some
[212] What do you think of the girls and the whole teeny bopper thing? i don't care.
[213] Have you ever paid for a pay-per-view? yes.
[215] Do you ever buy merchandise of your favorite group? not usually.
[216] What tv station is better...mtv or vh1? mtv.
[217] What is the worst show on mtv? umm boiling point.
[218] what is the best show on mtv? real world.
[277] What's your favorite color? pink or red.
[278] What's your favorite number? 6
[280] What's your favorite animal? dogs
[281] What's your favorite holiday? holidays suck.
[283] What's your favorite sound? i don't know.
[294] What's your favorite shape? heart.
[296] What's your house gonna look like? huge.
[298] How many kids do you want? 4
[299] What does your ideal girlfriend/boyfriend look like? tall, built, gorgeous eyes, perfect smile.
[300] How do they act? sweet. n funny.
[302] Do you like to call or be called? be called. i usually dont call.
[304] Move anywhere, where would it be? florida
[305] What time is it now? 1225 PM
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Sunday, February 15th, 2004
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so yeah. randy called me back- and they cancelled the frat party or something. so he told me it'd be useless to come. he probably lied and said that 'cause he got a better date. boo :(
sooo.. i called luke 'cause he told me if i wanted that Steve was still having that party.. soo yeah. he came and got me. we met joey[remember she's a girl, lol] and amy .. and then we went to luke's for awhiiiiile. and eventually to steve's. it was actually his aunts house but whatever everyone was drinkin n smokin' the ganga. haha. yeah. i sat on the chair in the corner and talked on the phone to matt p.!!! lol. :-X soo yeah. we had to leave there around 12:30...
soo after that, everyone came back to luke's house- we couldn't get any more beer, though.. soo we just played playstation and such. there was a good 12 people there so it was fun. :)
we stayed up SOoO FREAKING late omigaaad. it was so much fun though. joey is a stipper and she was teaching me her dances and stuff. oh dear, luke DID NOT like that. he got all swoll and went upstairs and stuff while everyone was down in his room partying [they found beer.] so yah. i had a freakin' blast with all of his friends. and he sat upstairs being pissed off at me & something his EX did to him.
soo yeah.. around 5 or so, we ended up talking cause everyone left us in this room together hahaha cause they knew we were fighting. so we were talking and i explained everything to him on why i don't want a relationship, and all that.. and i think he FINALLY understands. so its cool. wOooo!
then everyone left around 7 .. and me luke & joey went to sheetz. . then me and luke took joey home.. and luke and i went back to his house to eat. then we went to bed. yeah woke up around 1.. three new voicemails from my mom wondering if i was alive.. hahaha oOops!
anyway, i think i'm going to dye my hair back to blonde today.. we'll see.
<33
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Saturday, February 14th, 2004
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ok. so we had a family dinner! that was cool. me , my mommy, n my daddy laughing and talking about old times. awwh. i miss that <3
soo yeah RANDY CALLS while we were eating lol. yeah i told him i'd call back. so yeah, anyways.. he's all "i'm leaving for school now... and i'm gonna go up and see if everything is still going on before i tell you to come up.." soo i'm kind of dissapointed, cause things might not happen cause a lot of his frat brothers have gf's and they're going out to dinner and such. boo :( anyway, he's calling me back at 730 to give me definite answers/plans.
if he tells me there's no party or anything- luke's friend, Steve is having a party .. so i could always go there. mmmmyeah.
pray that there is still something going on i really want to go see randy . :\
much love <3
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ok.. soo luke's away message says..
this still holds true...you were the best thing that has ever happened to me...and even though there are no gurantees...here's to the future no matter what it may bring for you and me...
You know the digits. Blow up the cellular!
If you can find a girl who has great looks, and has the personality to match and will give you a chance. Its a God send.
We'll see about my God send!
umm yeah FREAK ME OUT dude. i'm his god sent?! ahahaha. soo missy knows all about my convo with him last night.. it was crazy he was all saying if i party and stuff how are we supposed to "grow together" .. WHO SAYS THAT?!?! lol yeah. so then he just calls me to ask me about my away message.
I fell for the promise of
a life with a purpose.. but
i know that that's impossible now,
and so i drink to stay warm.
and to kill selected memories
cause i just can't think anymore
about that or about [him] tonight
-bright eyes-
but like, some stuff is bolded and italicized and whatnot.. soo he's all.. "omg what is that about" and i'm like omg GET A LIFE. rawr. he is making me soo mad!!
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soo last night - i went to this party in greensburg with nick [same place i was at last saturday night] & i had A BLAST. :) hehe. i got CRUNKED and we were all dancing and partying wow i just LOVE dancing. so that was rockin'. and this kid mike was all up on me; freaky. hehe, and this kid ryan [he lives @ the apartment] like begged me for my number. 'n he's kinda cute- even though i have a bad history with RYAN'S ... i gave it to him. he's 23, though :-X
anywho. we went to eat'n park at liiike 2 aM for the midnight buffet.. i drove, and i shouldn't have. i wasn't drunk still, but on the way home i went over the freaking median on the highway.. and was completely on the wrong side of the road?? how you ask?? i have NO idea.. i just like, did it. i was playing with the radio. i scraped the botom of my car SOO bad. oops!!
but yeah that was a funnnn night. :)
TONIGHT IS GOING TO BE AMAZING.. if randy ever calls me .. lol its already 4 o'clock !! and i have NOOO idea what i'm going to wear tonight. YIKES !! i don't want his fraternity brothers to think he brought some retard girl, you know?? hmmMmm.. okay i gotta go i sound really shallow at this point
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Friday, February 13th, 2004
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OMY LORD!! I'M SOOO EXCITED. soo i went to the mall to take some stuff back and buy some new clothes and such.. and on the way home randy finally called me .. WOOO!! he's home and we were gonna hang out tonight but a bunch of the guys he's friends with also came home from school tonight, so they're all going to zach's to chill and such... and i figured i shouldn't be the only girl there- so yeah.. ANYWAYS, THE POINT IS .. he asked me to his frat's valentines day party tomorrow cause its like "bring your date night" or something and OMG OMG OMG he wants me to be his date!! how freaking cool is that?? i was like screaming when i hung up with him and almost wrecked my car. lmao. yeah, so i don't know if he's gonna drive me, or if i'm going to have to drive.. hmm.. guess we'll see.. woooo hoo!!
ok i gotta go get ready cause me joey {she's a girl!!) and amy are gonna head out to a party @ my school. wow, this is going to be the best weekend in awhile. :D :D
LOVE YINZ!!
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last night was a blast. hehe. sara came home from school 'cause she's sick and wanted her mommy to take care of her :) .. well she started feeling better so she came and got me and we went to the mall, target, gabes, then to denny's to eat. weee. then brandi called us crying and her school is like 3 minutes from the mall where we were. . so we showed up at her dorm. her stupid boyfriend was being an asshole. grr to him its two freaking days before valentines day buddy!!
anyway. randy is supposed to call me cause we're going out tonight but he hasn't called yet. i mean, i'm online and he wno't be able to get through, so yeah. hmm. oh, and my moms cell is ringing with some house number from my area & i think it's randy but god forbid i freaking answer it cause she doesn't have any fucking minutes. what is the point of a fucking cell phone if you won't ever answer it? yeah.
signing out.
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Thursday, February 12th, 2004
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wow. good night, i'd say!!
my mom was being a b!tch and wouldn't let me use her cell phone tonight [i don't have my own because i have a stalker who called my phone 90842934802 times an hour] soo whatever. i went to luke's. we watched the end of the oc, newlyweds, till death do us part, cribs, then jay leno. lol. its fun, he knows all the shows i like. well whatever we worked out whatever problems from last night.
he needs to understand shaun is someone i'm not willing to let out of my life- but he kept saying that he doesn't know if he'll be able to "fill he shoes" or whatever. and honestly, i'm not sure if he will be able to. but whatever. he knows i'm not looking for a boyfriend!!! but thats all he wants to be; is my boyfriend. he's like "when will you be ready to be official?" and im like.. i dont know. and he's just "i'm not going to wait around forever" okay then LEAVE!!
anyway.. the whole point about the cell phone. when i got home .. around 1, (early night tonight haha), randy had called me and left a voicemail!! ::RUNS AROUND THE HOUSE SCREAMING IN EXCITEMENT:: [i have had the biggest crush on randy since my junior year - a few weeks ago i went up and visited him @ his school and all of my girls were sleeping in his dorm room cause we kno randy & his roommate josh from HS.. well anyways, i ended up sleeping in randy's bed cause he left to do some frat stuff or whatever and when he came back, he slept with me!! j ust cuddled and stuff AWW.. and he's been trying to get me to come back up.. but yeah i haven't went yet]
ANYWAYS.. soo yeah, he's coming home friday and he wants to hang out!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEE!! i can't freaking wait. ahhh. ok, calm down :)
that's about it, i think. maybe i'll try and get some sleep now
much love
<3
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Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
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yesterday.. STEVE CALLED ME!! weee! and he was all "do you have a valentine yet?" and i didn't tell him that tim & luke & AJ & nick asked me to do something :-X .. i was just nonchalant saying nope, no one i wanted has asked yet.. lol. but whatever, he ended up changing the subject.. but he's like "WHEN ARE YOU COMING UP?!" and such. soo hopefully i can go up soon. he says he's going to either call tonight or tomorrow. <33 :D <-- big smile. lol.
so anyway. steve goes to bed wayy early.. like 11 or 12. so when we got off the phone, i called luke since he pretty much told me i had to call him last night. heh. anyway, we talked for awhile.. things were going great.
[background- luke knows shaun- they worked together over the summer and now they talk online i'd say once a week]
and luke has made it clear that he wants to become boyfriend/girlfriend eventually but he is aware that i'm not ready for that right now. soo he's just kinda stickin' around and waiting i guess for me. we're having fun though, ya know? so whatever.. the point is- i'm gonna try n make this as short as possible.. we ended up fighting about shaun. i'm like, i still love him. and luke asked if we still talked n stuff and i was telling him how we did, and how we still say love you and stuff. and luke got pretty swoll. but yeah. apparently luke talks to shaun- and shaun has plans of coming back to me this summer, pretty much just for a "fling" and then going to drop me when he leaves?? well i was so upset by that and i was telling luke there was no way that was going to happen.. and he's like, "what if he tries something" and i said.. "i'm going to stop him, and say look shaun we know this can't work.. the distance.. i'm not setting myself up to be head over heels all summer and have you drop me like nothing when you go back to school" .. and luke was like.. "what if he moves back" .. and i had nothing to say. just "he won't" and luke is like, "theres already been talk that he's going to" ... soo yeah. i didn't knwo what to say. my god if shaun moved back here my life would be back to perfection. i'd love that. sorry to luke, but i love shaun more than anything. however, that isn't going to happen.
it ended up being 430 in the morning when luke was just too angry and said "i'm going to bed" and i was like "alright" and he said bye and i just hung up. oh, he's mad cause i dont' want to tell shaun about "us" .. like only because there really isn't an us! ok, soo maybe we're talking/hanging out.. possibly even dating. but its nothing that shaun needs to know about RIGHT NOW. i dont wanna hurt him. because he even told luke he won't move on because this summer he thinks we're going to get back together/ ish.. and he doesn't want to have to explain to his new gf that he is missing his EX. blah. i wish shaun and luke didn't talk.. this me starting to talk to luke thing was a baaaad idea.
i'm signing out on that note.. sorry this was a novel...
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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
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soo yah. sunday- dinner with AJ. ahahaha. that was fun. he picked me up in his metallic red HuMmmma. lol. he shows off that H2 like its his job. anyways, we went down to pittsburgh- to Station Square. and we went to this restaurant, The Cheese Cellar or something. i got italian chicken n rice and it was 14.95. shiiiit. and he got the top sorloin and i don't even know how much that was. wow. i kinda felt bad cause i dont' even like the guy. but he gave me the britney spears CD :D :D.. and i opened it and we listened to it on the way down. :D i love her. lol
soo yah. dinner AJ talked about himself the ENTIRE TIME. yeah. that sucked. soo then i made him take me home cause i said i had tons of homework or something..
when i came home i called jeff - he said we were going to luke's to watch movies. joey [remember, she's a girl] was coming too so mine and luke's plan to hook up joey n jeff was working!!!!! HOOORAY!!
lol. well luke came and got me. we met steve & his girl, nikki, @ sheetz. then jason was there too. and jeff showed up, and two other people i didn't know. so we all head back to luke's house. then joey got there! :D
we watched bad boys 2 and friday after next. everyone ended up leaving by 1 or so except for me and luke, and jeff and joey. soo luke decides to let them two be alone.. lol soo we go down in the basement to luke's room.
i ended up falling asleep in his bed, omg he has a heated blanket AHHH <3 my new love!! lol. whatever, he took me home at liike 6am. my daddy was jacked. soo i missed school and slept all day. oops.
then around 5 yesterday devin calls me and wanted to go see barber shop 2. i was game, cause i didn't have any other plans. soo we went down to The Waterfront and went to eat at Fridays first. it was nice.
[background - devin and i grew up across the street from each other. he's a year older. since i was in 8th grade he had the biggest crush on me, i finally gave in when i was in 9th grade- we went out on & off for 10 months or something... then him and his dad got into this huge fight, and he moved to a different school district to live with his mom so we broke up. we have always stayed close friends, though]
then we went to the movies. it wasn't that great. but yeah. then we went back to his house and watched 8 mile. he took me home around 4. lol.
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